Most do not realize the Pain I'm in
They can not understand what I'm going through
My mom lost her baby boy and I lost the part that completes me
What Can I do about it I miss him so much
I just don't understand why It had to be him

I only wish he was still here just so I could feel complete
Not even my friends know what I'm going through
They all try to sympathize with me but fail because
Because they do not understand what it feels like

I know I can not continue keeping it in
But there is not anything else I can do currently
I have to appear strong for my mom
Especially since I know that she is hurting more then me

I can not keep this up it is eating me up making me cold
So cold and Devoid of emotions
No one has realized what is inside of the mask I wear
They do not realize the details under the Farce

My demeanour is just a hollow shell
One that I've slowly built over the years
My constant smiles, and witty comments
Upbeat attitude, and Striving Goals

Are all fake
Are only there to protect myself
Can not be understood
All my life I've been building this facade

And I don't even think that my mom
Understands what I truly feel underneath it all
But know that I've let the secret out
I know that I need to reveal the true me

If I can manage
If I could only guarantee
That my mind would not break from the emotions
That I've been keeping inside of me for all of these years.